A quick update !

I have made up my mind !

At last !

Moving on ...

Gonna put in my best to make my dreams come true...

No matter what .Now no turning back and waiting for anything / anyone.

And I am more than sure my Lord's blessing and guidance is always with me and will keep me within the moral limits.

Above all, I surrender all my actions and thought unto his feet !

I believe, none of my actions nor my thought truely belong to me !

They are His plans executed through me!

And since what I call my dreams, are nothing but my thoughts, they too are incepted in me by Him!

Hence," I" do not exist on my own !

"I" am just His tool !

Hare Krishna !!!

What to do and not to !!!!

Hi

I think what ever on the pages here are just fantasies that cross my mind .

Those that I sometimes cannot distinguish if its real or my imagination !

There might be things that some might find offending.

Some might find it silly .

May be even unnecessary ....

But what somebody feels is not in my interest!

All I get from blurting out over here is just a person, an imaginary person to listen to my rubbish thoughts.

Rubbish, I say and hence I dont want such thoughts and ideas to get into the real me and pollute my life.

So I write, to get rid of thoughts, to keep me away from such things happening for real.

I think there should be no reason for anyone to feel strong feelings within themselves with what is written down here.

Above all,

If you read something over here....

I didn't force anyone to do so.

Yet if you still happen to read, take it as if you were reading some magazine or fiction!

And comments are always welcome.

But no orders entertained.

Life is already complicated.

Please do not make it a shit hole !

With love

Kats

ForEver

What do I do
To Keep my Spirits up?
What do I do
To See the colours again?
What do I do
To hear my heart speak?
What do I do
To listen to the eternal music?
What do I do
To Bring back my soul?
What do I do
To wake up my sleeping Love?
What do I do
To make the flowers whisper to me of their love?
What do I do
To be alive?
What do I do
To be your Love forEver?
I know the secret !
Yes!
I do!
I can change the definition of "ForEver !"
"Forever" was when you looked into my eyes,
"Forever" was when I lazed in your arms,
"Forever" is now,
"Forever" is every moment I think of you,
"Forever" is every breath I take !
"Forever" will I belong to You !

Tears
"Forever Yours"
 Love

So tough!

I never thought
It would be so hard.
So hard to Smile...

Now,
I understand the terms
"Clinical death" & "Biological death ".
I wonder,
If I feel anything at all ...
Yes, I do ...
What I feel,
Is your absence...
What I hear,
Is your silence ...
What I see,
Is me, frozen in time ...

There was a time I trusted my heart.
And now it says,
Things have changed.
Says, he is no longer mine.
Says, he has forgotten me,
Says, he needs me no longer,
There was a time I trusted my heart ...
Not anymore,

Like any other,
You have started to lie as well  !
No dear, I can't trust you !
Or, I don't want to lose him,
The one, you said,
Would stand by my side, to fight all odds,
Yes, Is now fighting,
But me ?

Which of you should I trust ?
The you who said, "Yes dear, he's the one ! "
Or
You who say, "let go of him, he's afraid ! " ?
Which one of you should I trust ?

My heart asks me back
"Didn't you, my dear,
Make a promise to follow his words,
follow his decisions??,
And then my dear, still you weep ?"

Yes,
Yes I did make that promise,
But,
More than that I made a promise bigger than this...
I promised, would never leave him,
Promised, would never abandon him, no matter what !
I promised would help him find his reading glasses,
I promised would pass his walking stick when out for a walk,
I promised would make him a sweater to keep him warm.
I promised would gift him a Princess, who would love him more than I !

All these promises, now are dying ...
All these promises, with me now, are nothing but words,
Words that mean nothing !
Just one prayer,
Hope this is just a dream,
Wish you woke me up, like you do
And say
"Its Ok dear Its just a dream honey, I am here, open your eyes ! "

If not,
I wish, I sleep forever,
And wake up never !

A tribute to the king of Gazals!

जब भी दिल के घम बढ़ते   ..

तो उनकी ग़ज़ल ,

धूप में छाव की तरह ,
ज़ख़्म पे दावकी तरह ,
दुःख में दोस्तोंकी तरह , होते सात हमेशा  .. हर दीवाने के सात ...
हाय .. क्या करेंगे अब हम ... खो दिए अपने दोस्त को  ... 

जी, ये सच हें की
न मिले आज तक आपसे ...

फिर भी मान ते हें आपको दोस्त अपना  ... 

आपने तो यूंही तोड्दिया रिश्ता हमसे !

लेकिन यह वादा हें हमारा ... न भूलेंगे आपको 

जबतक रहेगी साँस हमारी |

jii aapke liye !

जैसे बारिश से

मेहेक  उट्ठी माट्टी,

वैसे मेहेक उठे हैं हम, 

आपके आने पर |

आपकी आवज़ लेजातीहे हमें, 

न जाने कहाँ,

जहां भी हो ,

वही हे जन्नत हमारा |

इस बारिश ने फिरसे भिगोदिया 

हमें, आपही के यादों से |

मन करे, इसी वक्त 

दे जाएँ जान अपनी,

के जाते वक्त आपही के यादें 

लेजायें अपने सात |

ये बारिश भी ना?

है बहुत शरारत भरा,

देखोना ,

लेगाया  हमें एस दुनियासे दूर ...

मगर आपके पास |

March 26 th 2011

Earth hour @ home

All electrical appliances were switched off . 

My house at the time was lit by the light of my "Diya" and a tiny little perfumed candle :

Diya

Candle :

All photographs taken by myself  :-P <3 !
kats !